When Reality Bites

These past weeks, I’ve been strugling to achieve my dream to become an opthalmologist. The first step, of course, is entering the selection/eliminary test. After finding some informations from several opthalmology residents, I made final preparation to enter the exam.

Finally, at 14th October 2008, I was called to attend the first meeting, where we would get to know each contestant and the way the test would be held, and what would happen if we managed to pass the test.

The test itself was divided into 3 parts. The first part is to have our health examined (Rӧ Thorax, ECG, Blood test) and pshycologic test. The test was held in two weeks. After that, I need to wait untill the result came out a week after.

At the test, I was very astonihed to know that there’s something wrong with my eyes, aside that I wear a glasses. I didn’t know what’s wrong yet, but I’m afraid that would become an obstacle.

At the end, when the result day came, a miracle happened. I managed to pass the first elimination!!! I was so surprised. I tought I would fail. Thus I again went to the place to enter the second step.

The second part was knowledge test. The test itself, a multiple choice type, was like my usual test back when I was still in college. Unfortunatelly, maybe I still haven’t enough preparation to do it. They said, they will choose only 6-8 best results. I’m positive that I managed to get 7 or 8 mark, but apparently, other contestant were so much better than that. So.... on the result day, as I’ve guessed, I failed.

I was sad, of course, but on the other hand, failed means I’m brave enough to try. ^_^ And it’s not like I didn’t managed to gain something important in this test. I managed to made many new good friends from other cities, I managed to have experiences in doing some preeliminary tests, and I finally able to have a good general check-up XD

The fact that I failed is hurt, but I know, live must go on. I can try again later, or maybe I’ll find some other interesting carrier that’s more suitable for me. Whatever it is, I know that God’s choose what’s best for me ^_^